Personal Update: 6/23

These past couple of weeks/days have been very much a trial, re-learning, remembering, adjusting, clearing and diving deeper within. Letting it all go and just surrendering and allowing which at times seems to be the only thing to do and also the most challenging. It’s been emotional as well, and challenging to see just how deeply unconscious we have become, how everything is just so backwards, how everything is part of what we have created and it is important to see it all. Everything we have misperceived is tied to an emotional, a feeling deep inside that we have no other choice but to honor and release. Let go of of the perception that it’s taking too long, or why am I not ‘there’ yet, etc. This isn’t a sprint and it’s certainly not a competition by any means. The ego/human aspect is the one that is and will be very uncomfortable and fearful throughout the entire process and we have to be there for this aspect, to reassure it, to acknowledge it, to embrace and let it feel everything it has to feel so it can come back inside your heart.

The Ego/human Aspect
This is probably one of the most challenging things to deal with during this journey. Not only do you have to have to guts to actually look at it, but you also have to own it and not judge it. There are a gazillion of these aspects held right inside of us, some are completely oblivious to us because we’ve tucked them so very deep inside of it and other’s they’ve been there since past existences and are sometimes invisible. These aspects have many characteristics, they are all the versions of us that live in separation and fear believing that it’s unworthy and powerless. It doesn’t matter what age or what existence this aspect is, it’s all about the energy that it holds. It could be the version of you that is 3 year old and didn’t receive enough attention from its parents, it could be the 25 year old version of you that got its heart broken by a crush, or it could be another existence of where you killed another person. All of these aspects are playing a distortion or unconscious role for whatever reason it chose it to play. Regardless of what this aspect has done or said we have to own it, we can no longer pretend that its not there because it will only create more suffering and separation in all realities.
Remember that these versions/aspects of yourself aren’t a thing of the ‘past’, they are playing out right now, they are living this reality right now, everything is happening simultaneously right now, there is no time in this world. Time is also a construct of separation and when you consciously choose to dissolve it then you get to expand beyond this existence and unify all aspects inside so that they no longer play the victim/perpetrator role in any reality.
This is one of the ways where you can change/shift/resolve the perceived past and live fully as a Soul without the constant push or pull of time. I realized that I was still playing out this battle inside of myself. These aspects were still playing out this reality inside of me and therefore I wasn’t able to fully be present as who I really am. The battle, the fight, the the tug of war is all playing out inside and that is why it might be physically playing out in your current reality. In fact, last night i got to hear a cat fight and it didn’t dawn on me until the next morning that it was the same theme I realized I was working through inside. Yes, it is that literal and when you see it, recognize it and work through it within your world changes simultaneously.
It's up to each and every one of us to choose to see every aspect and own it and then shift it. The more you embrace it and honor it the more remembrance that will come through for you and you'll be able to clear all the energy and emotions that is attached to it. We all have to do it and we are all ready for it.

Samantha SolBright ☼
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